ghannili

so whenever im in a bad mood, nothing usually makes it better than music. i should mention that ever since i got married and moved to england, i have been disconnected from music and clips in general since i dont have an arab sat. my husband is conservative and would want his kids to be brought up memorizing and reciting quran rather than singing silly songs. he often blames his parents for making him waste his time by listening to such music isntead of sending him over for quran memorizing centers. so for this reason, i strictly minimize the time i hear music, and when i do, i make sure saif is not home.



u have no idea how much passion this boy has for music. well, it must be a big deal and fun for a kid of his age, especially that his nursery plays a good deal of music, slow ones for them as a background. he has passion for all kind of instruments. he has a great musical ear, he drums nicer than i do, i got him a guitar and a fluet about a year ago, and now he's asking for Oud after he saw my brother playing on one.

however, i finally realized why music or love songs are prohibited in islam. they bring back memories that one should not remember. be it, an old love, friendship, good memories or even bad ones. this all makes sense to me, because whenever i hear a song i used to hear back when i was still in Dubai, it takes me to another world, really disconnects me from my present. and i sometimes go even further in my imaginations. like " what if i was still at my parent's?" " would i be a successful working lady if im still in dubai?" " what if i got married to that guy instead of my husband?" etc... and then u wake up on ur little one screaming for attention :S

Speaking of screaming babies, Zaid is becoming too annoying with his whining habbits. he just whines all the time so that we would carry him. i think he got spoiled after his circumission and he carried on his dalal since he's always mrashe7. if he wants to sleep, he keeps whining and fake crying until i get fed up and carry him. the problem is that he's a very good actor since he manages to make good coughs until he throughs up. and i seriously got enough through ups this year, eshy begarref! sheeeeeesh! but u know what, i should work harder on that la2eno im gonna be travelling in a month inshallah, and i dont want headaches on the plane!!

yalla yalla im comingggggggggggg :@